Monday, July 26, 2010

He's taken. :(

What do I do when the guy I like has a girlfriend?... Well, I guess there is nothing to do. Personally, I just sit there and listen to music. I make a playlist on my ipod of songs about how I want him, but I can't have him. Here's two of them:

Amy Pearson - Wish I Was Her
Favorite Lyric: "I wish that my touch made you smile like that and I wish that I had you the way that she has."

Paula DeAnda - When It Was Me
Favorite Lyric: "I'm not jealous, no I'm not. I just want everything shes got."

He's dropped hints that he liked me and that he might break up with his girlfriend and that things weren't really working out with her. It's so sad. :( It's hard too, because he doesn't really know how I feel. I was thinking about telling him, but I didn't wanna be a homewrecker. What if she really likes him and he broke up with her? :( I wouldn't want her to feel like that! I'm not sure if telling him is the right thing to do... I thought long and hard about it. Then I found this quote:

"It hurts to love in vain and hurts even more to know that the one you love is loving someone else. But what hurts most, is finding out that he’s loving someone else, because you never gave him the chance to love you." -Unknown

I think that's a great saying. If he doesn't know, then how can he ever give me a chance? Also, my friend gave me some pretty good advice. She said that if I really like him that much, then I can wait for him OR move on. So, I think that I might tell him, but I'll wait some more first. If I wait a long time, then I might tell and if that doesnt work then I'll just have to move on. Writing this actually made me feel a little better. I hope that maybe you guys find some interest in my own personal story and that it might help you if you are going through the same thing. :) <3


Thursday, July 1, 2010

Sometimes, things get worse before they get better.

Have any of you heard the song by Eminem called, "Stan"? To be honest, I'm not a big fan of Eminem, but I like that song, because of the chorus, which is taken from the song, "Thank You" by Dido. I can't say too much about Eminem's rap compared the the song by Dido. I like "Thank You" a lot better. It reminds me that no matter how bad things are, they can always get better. I used Dido's chorus to version of the song. I don't rap, but thats how I pictured my part...

"My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds out my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad

Don't listen, try to block those thoughts from your mind and if you can't, then look behind.
I'm here, I was waiting the entire time, so come sit down and help me find.
Your inner thoughts, whats in your head, I'll tell you whats in mine.
Let's talk, but only if you want or we can just sit in silence or in thought.
I might not know exactly, but I know how you feel.
Sad and lonely, you need something real.
Even if thats not what your looking for, just know I'm here,
if you need a friend or something more."

I don't want to talk about why I wrote this, but just remember that even when you feel like life is at its lowest, time will heal things and it'll get better. I can promise that.

"You can't have a better tomorrow if you are thinking about yesterday all the time." -Charles F. Kettering

"Troubles are often the tools by which God fashions us for better things." -Henry Ward Beecher

Life is full of changes. It'll get bad, worse, then better. Sometimes that can start all over again, but no matter what, there will always be a new starting point. Just keep living.